A Simple Thing Called Love

so many ups and downs in life.
monday:
watched world cup final.
it ended at 5 and headed to sch.
so tiredd pls.
i went coz i'll be seeing her on monday what.
whether you wanna believe it or not, i spoke to her.
the feeling was so nice tht i didn't regret coming to sch.
but i accidentally told her what shamini said abt her.
and i didnt realise the seriousness till shamini refused to believe tht i told her tht.
then we planned what to tell her if she asks larh.
yeah thats what happened i guess.
apart from the freaking long lessons we had.
tuesday:
tuesdays are sucky.
dont really get to see her.
but i had o lvl hmt oral.
during council investiture, z came.
haha, she has changed?
but still nice larh.
i was looking at her and i wanted to cry.
but i didnt wanna get emo before o lvls.
so i forced myself to turn away.
she looked nice in heels. (;
oral was so screwed.
nothing we practised actually came out.
and i was darn nervous i cant even rmb what i said.
anw, its finally over.
wednesday:
she touched shamini right in front of my eyes.
that image juz haunts me.
and i totally broke down after she left.
my classmates saboed me!
they made me uhm..(thinks howta not make it so obv) "talk" in front of her.
i was blushing so much and my voice juz disappeared man!
i guess i finished "talking" with a shaky voice?
and hazie juz laughed and laughed.
and then my turn to laugh at hazie.
"Lucy was surprised!" HAHA.
then came the big blow.
she spoke to shamini AGAIN dammit.
and said tht shes pissed off with me.
it was meant to scare me.
but no, it only hurt me.
really, really hurt.
i broke dwn dnoe how many times.
and i was feeling so miserable.
i was jealous tht she always talks to shamini.
i was hurt tht she didnt understand why i didnt give her shamini's number.
i was confused whether i shd be mad at shamini or not.
i was feeling so betrayed by the both of them.
shamini was like.. flirting with her man.
and she seems to like shamini a lot.
the image of the pain you caused(though not deliberately), can be seen on my wrist.
happy?
thursday:
one word, JOY.
started off the day being mad at her and shamini.
was trying to be dao.
i was juz so upset larh.
then i wanted to apologise to her abt pissing her off.
but i was scared.
i juz went ahead anw.
and guess what?
she tells me it was juz a joke.
after all that pain i went through.
sheesh. i was happy anw.
told her i wasnt scared but hurt.
i honestly wasnt scared, only upset.
then she apologised. (so sweet rite?)
i always fall for those with inner beauty.
yeah anw, i told her it was too late.
and she asked me to be extra happy and touched my back.
i was blushing already man.
after months, shes touching me.
i was so happy, the feeling of flying thru heaven with angels.
yes sweets, you've made me EXTRAEXTRA happy tdae.
thank you so much.
workload has been rising and rising.
tskk, so sick of work.
the only reason i make it to sch is her.
every morning at 5am, the thought of seeing her drags me out of bed and to sch.
isnt it juz amazing?
i still come when i dont get to see her coz who knws, she might juz walk past me.
without her, sch will be terrible and extremely miserable.
thank god. (:
english oral tmrw.
gonna go off to practise now.
and serena, thank you for being thr for me.
oh yeah, hazie cheer up.
shes coming back to spore next week.
shes not MIGRATING thr, alright hunnehs?

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